To my Grandchildren Jenna & Dominic

Sept. 15, 2016

Dear Jenna & Dominic,

I wanted to catch you up with some of your family's pictures & events.  One of the most exciting things that happened last year was your Uncle Joe graduating from the Glendale Fire Academy!  YES, he is a fireman!  He worked so very hard to achieve this great goal.  It was such a happy day for all.  He's so enjoying his job and loves helping others.  I so wish you could have been there for all the celebrations!  Here is a picture from the Graduation.  This is of Me, your Grandpa John, Uncle Joe & your Aunt Michelle.  It was taken right after the ceremony.

Here is a picture of your Aunt Dana, Uncle Mike, Cousins Isabella & Dante.  They ask about you all the time and pray for you both.  Oh how I wish you knew them.  They are coming our from Pennsylvania for this Thanksgiving.  We are so excited to see them all.

Here is another picture of your family.  This is was taken Easter of 2015.  This is your Ohio Family.  They love you so very much too!  What great cousins you have with both families.  Someday I pray you will all connect.

Here is a picture of your Grandpa John's "73rd" birthday this past Aug. 2nd. We were in Las Vegas for a furniture show. He loves you so much and wishes we had you in our lives.  I just hope you get to know him someday soon.  The years are passing so very fast.  It's just not fair that you are being kept away from family.  It so breaks my heart.

I just want you to know how so very much you are missed and loved.  YOU ARE OUR FAMILY.  Never forget that.  I wish I could just wrap my arms around you both.  I hope and pray that someday soon you will find all of these posts, blogs and pinterest pages.  I am trying everything in my power for you to stumble across anything so you can make the connection.  You are both still so young, but one day it WILL happen.  

Always know you are loved..Always..and ALWAYS KNOW how very much your Daddy loved you!

September 2016 - To my precious Grandchildren

You are in my heart

To my Wonderful Grandchildren

I love you both and think of you everyday. #jennaraynelibrandi #jennalibrandi #johnlibrandi #dominiclibrandi #domlibrandi

My heart is heavy tonight Jenna & Dominic LiBrandi my precious Grandchildren

Sept 9, 2014
My precious Grandchildren...my heart is heavy tonight.  Tonight; 2 years ago, is the last time I would see my son...your daddy.  My heart is breaking  for losing him.  I loved him so very much.  There are no words to discribe to you both the complete love I had and have for him.  You daddy had and has the same love for you...only now, it's from heaven.  When you have children you will understand that complete, utter, selfless love.
This is a love I have for you as well.  A love that I will ALWAYS have. A love I have always longed to share with you both.
I hope and pray that your mother will honor your father on his "angelversary" date every year that passes.  I pray that your mother will provide you with knowledge of your daddy and the love he had for you. I pray for YOU BOTH..I pray that one day we shall unit and I can put my arms around you again.....
I love you both so much...my heart aches...my mind and heart hurt...but my love remains.
ALL our loves remains for you both.  The "LiBrandi's" from Arizona to Ohio to Pennsylvania love you...they will always love you and will always want you both in their lives.
God bless you both....
Love you forever...
Your Grandma PJ

September 4, 2014 - Thinking about you so much

 

September 4, 2014

My precious ones

I write this to you because you are on my mind so strong.  I hope you are both doing ok.  I’m not doing so good right now.  I just can’t stop thinking of you both and how I so much wanted to spend time with you in your growing up years.  I feel so helpless and sometimes wonder if I should not fight for you, but then my mind and heart goes to thinking of what that would put you both through and I don’t want you to go through any more pain.  Losing your daddy was a big enough pain.  That I know.  It’s the worst pain I have ever felt in my life.  Losing you both was right there with it.

I so wish your mom and grandparents were different.  I wish they could begin to understand what they have done to us by keeping you away and I wish they knew what they have done to YOU BOTH as well, by keeping you from YOUR FAMILY.  You both have lost so much with us; your grandparents, your aunts and uncles and you cousins.  They love and wish so much you were in their lives.  There is so much joy to share….joy I so wish you were a part of.

This is not how I EVER wanted to communicate to either one of you but it is all I have.  I think, I write, I pray, I hope.  I have sent you cards, but I know that you have never received them….so I am doing this instead.  This so you know you have NEVER been forgotten.

The only thing that is keeping me sane is my faith….my faith in God…In Jesus.  I pray to him all the time.  I pray to him to keep you both safe, to learn the love of our Lord, to know the love of you precious Daddy, to know the love of this family that so longs to be with you.

My heart aches.  I don’t know at what age you will read this, but I hope it is sooner than later.  The love of a mother is huge and should not be selfish.  Moms for sure are not perfect; no one is on this earth.  That is why I choose to “forgive” the past.  Letters were not intended, but what was intended was total and complete love for you both in person.  I only so wish that had been.  Dear God how I miss you both with every being of my soul. 

Your Grandpa John is now 71 years old.  I hope and pray he sees the day when he can wrap his arms around you.  I worry so about this with his age.  He’s lost his son; your daddy; and he longs to see you both.  Time is a sometimes a friend but sometimes an enemy.  We can only pray that “time” can be a friend of ours to reunite with you both.

All for now.  I love you so very much,

Always & Forever

Your Grandma PJ

Thinking of you both Every Day

Saturday, August 30, 2014

I am sitting here at the computer working.  We have a large picture board that I can see from where I sit and your pictures are on there with your daddy.  I look at you both every day of my life. You both are so precious.  I just want to jump into the picture and hug you both.  Hug you like I used to do when I could see you. I so hope you can remember.  I miss you both so much.

I also have pictures of you both in our bedroom and around the house.  Everyone that comes over loves them and wishes they could know you as well.

I had so much fun being around you both for the short time that it was.  I was never allowed to bring you over to our house.  That also saddens me.  I always wished we could have you for a weekend, or even overnight or just for the day.  That would have been so much fun. 

I’m so hoping Jenna that you are still singing.  I think of your ever so sweet voice & wish I could hear it again.  You really could sing so well.  YOU TOO Dominic….You sang a little for me.  I hope you kept it up too. You both got your Daddy’s voice.  He loved to sing too.  I don’t think you know this, but your Daddy tried out for American Idol!  He didn’t make the cut, but he had fun auditioning for the show.

Your cousins Isabella, Sara & Sophie have great singing voices too.  I told them how good you are too.  Your cousins Dante & Gabe are both the sport young men.  Both are into baseball & football.  Someday they hope to see you both.  They would love it so much.

I’m hoping you have a fun Labor Day weekend.  Although I know you will not read this till much, much later.  When, I don’t know, but someday.

I keep praying your Mom & grandparents will somehow see how wrong they are in keeping you from us.  I keep praying that they will know the sadness and hurt they have put upon us all & will realize that what they have done and are doing is one of the utmost hurtful inhumane things one can do to your Daddy’s side of the family and what an injustice it is to you both as well. 

Always know you are in my heart, and in the hearts of every member of your Daddy’s side of the family.  We all miss you tremendously and pray for you every day.

Love you forever,

Your Grandma PJ

PJ LiBrandi

Paula Jo LiBrandi